Saturday, June 23, 2007

23 Skiddoo!

Just to update you...

My life is great.

I've been flirted with, changed my hair color back to red (it just feels right!), had way too much beer, laughed so hard my sides hurt, and in general feel just peachy. Oh, and did I say I was flirted with? Nothing heals the hurt of being cheated on like someone else thinking you're attractive.

Life has a way of working itself out.

Jon and I even talked this morning and although I know that it is over for sure, somehow it felt good to not be angry anymore. I realized that I'm ready to move on. Hell, I already am moving on.

So, life is good. :)

Off to a couple of parties and bbq's....who knows what wonders await? :)

Monday, June 18, 2007

Thank you!!

What did I do to deserve a friend like you?
Friday afternoon when Jon and I broke up, my world was pretty much turned upside down. I thought that he was one of the few people that I could trust blindly. Sometimes I catch myself still shocked that he actually cheated and that he wasn't ever going to tell me. The most painful was the emotional cheating that he did...and all those bad little thoughts about ourselves that we all try so hard to suppress came flooding towards me. Because as I've found, when you're alone and wide awake at 3 a.m. it's hard to remember that it isn't you and it wasn't your fault.

I wondered if there were good, honest people out there and if people were worth trusting at all...

Your support over the last couple of days through thoughts, prayers, phone calls, emails, and comments have meant so much!

It's helped me to feel grounded. It's reminded me that there are good people who still know right from wrong. It's made me feel loved even though I am trying to release the feeling of being rejected. It's helped me realize how thankful that I am that I get to be in your lives. It's renewed my faith in the goodness of people and given me the strength to let go of some of the anger, hurt, and sadness. Even those that have offered to call or "visit" him have made me feel protected, cared for, and that it's okay to lean on people. What's more is that it's helped me remember that I will be able to trust whomever I date in the future...maybe more tentatively than in the past, but I will be able to trust again.

I doubt I'll ever know what I did to deserve friends like you. In truth, I don't think I did anything to deserve it.

You are a gift. Your friendship is a gift.

And I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Friday, June 15, 2007

They say that breakin' up is hard to do

...but this one was pretty easy.

Jon and I broke up.

He cheated on me.

Any cards, comments, emails, flowers, statements of what a jerk he is and how much better I am to be rid of him and/or song dedications from Deliah After Dark are welcome. Seriously though, I know that you guys are thinking of me and I appreciate it. :)

I'm okay - mostly shocked...and angry. Sad will come later...I'm sure. Until then, know that I appreciate your friendship. :)